emotionality diri ini

hey blog. well i seldom posting siang2 hari. but today ntah la bosan je. tu yg nak posting ni. anyway today saturday. 3 things happen to me. 1st i watched hindustan film kat tv tadi. tade wat pape so nengok je la. very the touching one. pasal abang jaga adik. well tau la kan my relationship wif my bro. kejap baik kejap gado. 2nd i ajak my mom p giant hypermarket tau. i nak ajak pegi beli makanan kudap2. tau ape tu kudap? yg bole dikunyah sambil tgk tv ke duduk2 ke sebab stok kat umah dah abes. 3rd someone i knew virtualy for couple of months nak ajak jumpe. well to be honest i takot nak jumpe. bese la low self esteem. or better to say i tanak amik risiko bile i dah jumpe and he dont want to see me again after dat. so why take risk? i tatau between this three things yang mana buat i menangis tibe2. my mom tanak p giant. cite industan tu dah abes and that guy i knew asyik sms ckp dia ade kat umah tak p mana2 and tunggu i bg green light je nak jumpe. dia baik. i mean virtualy dia baik. im not sure do i have feelings for him. i feel guilty to let him waiting for my call. dia sanggup datang area umah i. tapi mcm2 excuses i bagi. what should i do? dia kata this whole weekend dia nak spend his time with me. i would luv to see him but i dun have any guts. takkan pasal mak tanak p giant i nanges kan? tipu la pasal cite industan tadi i tak nanges. tp cover line sbb mak pun tgk sama. well what should i tell this man? nape i nanges? emosi tak stabil ketika ini. i nak p tempat yang i ske and mesti korang gelak. takkan la giant yg i ske. yes i ske p giant. tgk barang2, belek2 barang bole buat i lupe pasal unstable emotion. i nak ajak kawan minum sume pun bz. ye la weekend sume nak spend ngan family. well i guess nanges tu better decision currently.

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hello there. when im posting this blog, i was in my bro's room. kinda tumpang his room tonight. im a bit afraid to sleep in my own roOm. u know why? just now around 8 i watched terminator 3. this is my 1st time watching this movie. so i was so excited at dat moment. i used to open the pintu kayu umah coz i was sitting kat living room kan? so bia angin masuk sket. while im watching this movie, ive heard someone yelling and i saw people running in front of my house. so i thought maybe bebudak sabah yang mmg biasanya lalu depan umah and buat kecoh2. so i biarkan je la. coz too many sounds la bole dengar tetiap malam. tengah2 tgk tv ni my jiran panggil and asked did i saw person ran away? i said yes then i asked him why? dia ckp la ade pencuri masuk umah one of our neighbour. my mom, my bro and me pun kuar la umah. i tengok dah ramai jiran2 kuar umah. this neigbour yang rumah kene masuk ni pun keco la. i can see people up on the roof. looking and seeking for that thief. but too bad that thief ran away. everybody in their own house checked their own house to make sure the thief didnt get into their houses. ye la every houses ade siling yang terbuka kan? so the thief can get in easily.after 1/2 hour 2 policemen came here and panjat bumbung juge. checked sana sini. coz umah ni selang 3 je dari umah i. dedekat umah kitorang ni ade 2 empty house. tiada penghuni. menambahkan lagi kekalutan kan? mana la tau pencuri tu dalam empty house tu kan? then kan tetengah police officer ni wat keje datang la satu family ni. bleh tak dia nak wat report dia baru je kene ragut kat depan umah dia. area2 umah i la but tak satu jalan. wah cepat btol org tau depan umah kami ade police officer. bagaikan internet begerak tetibe ramai org depan umah kami sume. to me this is not the 1st time kami sume berdepan dgn masalah ni cume yg pelik pencuri tu guna masa time org tak sangka kan? ye la slalunye pencuri ni waktu tgh malam kan? but rite now no specific time i guess coz kalo lewat malam ade rukun tetangga meronda this area. wahh takot la pk cmni. ragut sana sini. masuk umah org. hey bersyukur kalo pencuri ni curi je barang. kalo di apa apakan manusia dlm umah? cmne? teruk je. in this case anak pompan dia je dlm umah. luckily dia menjerit kuat2. so that thief ran away maybe dia amatur kot? so memandangkan bilik i ni ade siling mcm nak roboh sbb bocor kot i decided nak tumpang bilik abg until my dad ask sumone to fix it. hahaha takot i. baik tido ngan abg. tido bwh pun bwh la. janji ade org teman.

p/s i saw boy just now. hehe. anyway boy is my childhood fren. lama tak nampak muke dia. lol

mari baca satu cerita

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hah harapan la kalo nak tgk picture2 p tgk bowling karna kami sume tidak jadi main bowling oleh kerana terlalu panjang waiting list nye. duh!! rosak program! anyway sokkay la tade rejeki. kami pun jalan2 je la. arini temankan si kawan ni p uitm, p skola sume. hah meh nak bitau satu cite. kami ni jalan2. dlm kete ni si kawan ni baru la pasan beg merah cap ELLE dia ni rupenye piggy skin. bese la berpandukan pengetahuan org kata kalo nak tau leather ni piggy skin ke tidak tgk kalo ade titik 3 dot tu kire sah la tu. so kami pun decided suh kawan ni jgn pakai la. maknanye dia kene samak la kan? dah dia dok usung ke sana ke mari. skali bile balik umah i pun terpk la. dia dok usung sana sini rasenye ade gak daku ni terpegang. bile dah was2 kan amalan syaitan, so saya pun nak la samak. i pegi umah kawan amik tanah, dan samak kan la badan ini. huhuu menggagau gak la bile cetek ilmu. abes tanya kawan sana sini. hehe anyway at least dah blajar kan? hehe kpd pompan itu. i know u are reading dis. rentikan beli beg kulit okek. miahahhahahahhahahha

helloooo

samat pagi. i woke up at 8am today. wahh awal kan? tu pun sbb semalam dah tido kul 10pm. nipu la kalo nak bangun tgh hari gak. well smalam ari penat. p jalan2 sama itu nadia. 1st p the curve. skali jalan2 bosan lak. kami melangkah kuar dan ke times square plak pastu. dia nak carik barang. kaki lenguh toksah cite la. nak je jalan kaki ayam. i bought a bag for school. haha penat sangat smalam. sampai tido awal. today ade activity gak. nak neman nadia p sekolah mintak cop, dia nak p uitm shah alam amik mini transkrip and pastu p main bowling. yey! hahaha tu acara yg dinanti nantikan. okeh kalo ade picture menarik nnt akan di tampal disini okek. babai. have a nice day

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akak red, sorry la lambat reply tag akak ni. esok nak final exam intersession. bese la org sebok coti semester saya nyemak2 amik peksa hehe. hah demi akak red, ku gagahkan juga. by the way ni hah isi kandungan latest handbag. baru balik study group la katakan.

1. nampak casing camera? camera nye tade la kan dah duk amik gamba ni. mcm akak red gak la angkut camera p mana2 je. kot jumpe akak red sok luse leh amik gamba dua ye.
2. compact powder. i hardly wear it but kalo dah muka kilat je, pakai la utk touch up sket. bior nampak elok rupenye hehe.
3. ade satu jenis lipstick and satu lip gloss. itu ikut mood aritu la. kalo nampak glam2 sket pakai la lip gloss. but usually lip balm will do too.
4. nampak kipas lipas? hah yg tu paham2 je la bile peluh2 tu, penyelamat tu. bile aircond kelas rosak ke, kat umah org kawen ke, jalan nak p parking kete ke. hah must have thing tau ini barang.
5. ada body mist from body shop. bau plum. bese la bukan sume tempat p ari2 sejuk je. tambah2 p kelas. musti get ready dlm handbag wo. tapi kadang2 dirembat juge oleh classmates. huhu
6. hah yg kaler biru tu tissue la apa lagik kan? time ni khas digunakan utk hidung yg berhingus. hahaha. baru baik demam ni, penuh hidung dgn hingus ku. ekeke
7. kaler orange tu henpon. utk calling2.mak call tny kat mana, kul bape nak balik? tak nampak jalan umah ke? hahaha tp akak red leh gak calling2 saya. huhu ajak p minum2 ke. main bowling ke. tangan dah gatal nak campak bola bowling nih.
8. hah ni out of handbag. nampak bwh handbag ade kaler merah? tu buku text hahaha saje nak bitau sbb baru balik study group la katakan. tu buku quantitative analysis.

okeh kak red, sile la lihat apa yang ada. sbenarnye byk lagi yg ade dlm beg tu. kadang2 ade pencil case, ada calculator. mana sempat, ku sumbat aje. akak sile jadi hakim okek.

p/s wish me luck for tomorrow exam. pray for me. thanks

today's

hey

went back class as usual after having lunch with bunch of friends. tadi dapat result 2nd test. yang i took mase demam aritu. malu nye result daku. what happen to me ntah. elok2 1st test the highest mark, skali 2nd test hancur. huwaaa demam nye pasal and silly mistakes. i cant think straight that time. all i need was sleep and rest. so i dpt 21/40. ye mmg la lulus kan? tapi buat malu je dpt gitu. hampeh tol. anyway tadi ade 3rd test. mintak2 ok la kan? kalo hancur gak tatau la nak jwb mende dah pasni.

hah tadi ade la dua org lelaki ini ajak p tgk wayang. satu ni Raja, satu lagi tatau la nama dia ape. dia ni surfboarder. bole tahan bes gak itu activity kan? tp nak ajak tgk malam ni. mana leh kuar malam on class night. mesti mak marah punye. lain kali kot. lagipun Raja dah temper ngan i kot sbb konon2 ngade2 nunggu special invitation. lagipun dia tgh gado ngan a girl kat situ gak. kenapa tu tatau la kan? anyway tak saba nak tgk transformer. hehe

alhamdulillah. enough said.

arini i really2 proud of myself. segala yang dikorbankan, segala susah payah bangun pagi2 nak pegi kelas. tempuh jalan sesak, dah dtg tibe2 kelas cancel, takpun kene saman ngan pak guard sume tu rase berbaloi (even tak pnah bayar saman tu muahahaha) bile dpt tgk result exam semester lepas. alhamdulillah i dpt 3.43. thats great aite? even tak dean list but to me its more than ok. ye la utk i yg selama ni waktu diploma tak pernah dpt 3 pointer. tibe2 dapat durian runtuh cmni. mahu tak bangga kan? leely ade tanya apa moral story. so i will say that believe in urself and work harder. mesti bole punye kan2? tadi dah bitau mak pasal result ni. gembira nye dia jgn ckp la kan? ye la selama ni waktu diploma asyik bgtau ade sangkut paper la, susah la, sket je dpt. arini tup2 anak dia dpt 3.43. terkedu jugak la dia nak pk kan janji dia nak bwk p sarawak. huhu. ni la hadiah yang mampu i bagi kat abah sempena father's day ni. ye la barang boleh dibeli kan? rase gembira, bangga ni susah tau nak bagi kat abah i. dia tak reti puji anak dia. siyesly mase i ckp i dpt 3.43 dia replied 'nape tak 3.8 kan byk lagik?' i knew bukan dia tanak puji tapi dia tatau cara nak puji anak anak dia bile anak anak dia dah besar2 ni. but i knew deep inside his heart dia bangga kan?

but btol ckp kak red kat blog dia, bile kite hepi sgt mesti Allah nak bg kite satu bende yang sedih kan? tak bole nak tolak. dlm masa i gembire i dpt good marks, my bro tak dpt. i rase sedey utk dia. i knew he can do it. he cleverer than me. everybody knew that. tah mana silap nye skang. dia diam je tanak komen pape. but i know dia sedey apa jadi kat dia. tp mmg tu la sifat my brother. suke pendam apa dia rase. i know he was crying just now cume dia tanak org tahu. ye la big boys dont cry kan? i tau nape dia sedey. 1st people selalu banding2 kan between my bro n me. yela kami dua beradik je. tade sape lagik. org selalu api2 kan dia tanya tak malu ke kalau adik lagi cepat grad dari abang?. dia abang, bakal jadi ketua keluarga, malu la kalo adik lagi bagus. people will say anything. people takkan pk perasaan dia. dia tak tny pun i result i cmne. i tau dr my mom je. he did asked mom for my result and bile my mom bitau je dia nampak lagi kecewa. but its ok what ever he is who ever he wanna be after dis, i tetap kat sokong dia sbb dia abang i. takde abang yang lain. plus i mana ade other siblings?

yey!

im feeling better today. at last. alhamdulillah. after 3 days demam dengan teruk nye, arini im feeling better just cough ngan flu je. tade panas badan, tade muntah2, tade pening2. i can go to school next week. yey

still standing here

hello, its 2am currently and i cant sleep. i had a bad fever. really bad. since yesterday. siang tadi i went to kelas as usual for my 2nd test and i asked permission from the lecturer to go back after the test. b4 im outta class, he returned back my 1st test result. alhamdulillah i manage to get 29/30. at least i prove to that lecturer im not coming to the class just playing around. i singgah clinic after dat and the doctor said my temperature was 39C. no wonder i felt terrible. i went to mcdonalds for bubur ayam. after having my bubur ayam, i took rest for a while. around 2pm my mom kejutkan i untuk pergi bank bayar duit kereta la, pegi umah makcik la anta baju laundry la. so bile balik i demam balik. siyesly im feeling better around 2pm. but maybe my antibodi lom kuat lagik. so my body panas balik. btw my cousin nak belanje i makan sate kajang. but too bad i tak larat nak bangun pun. i tido sampai la i terjaga ni. sebab tak leh tido dah. i ate my medicine and hoping i akan ngantok afterdis. anyway i nak post one story kat sini. remember that girl i talked about lately? its kinda obvious when her bf and she send me message in the same day. well to be honest im not angry but i jauh hati je. mcm akak red kata la jgn pk pk dah kan? carik kawan baru. im not angry wif any matters she did to me. i tried not to be sensitive but do she really care? and that man plak bagi message ckp "i hope our problem wont effect ur relationship with her."well tak de kene mengena pun between them. this is about manner and attitude. bile dah tak de baru nak terkial? masa ade tu agaknye pk tak? and pls do not drag any frens of us utk masuk campur. and rite now, i nak tido balik coz im too weak to stay longer.

end of weekend

hey. today i woke up around 12pm and i do my laundry then i started doing some revision for this upcoming test. tak sampai 1 jam i study, i boleh berhenti kejap tengok movie kat tv. eventhough i dah tengok The Pacifier, i nak tengok lagi sambil tunggu washing machine stop. lepas habis tengok tv, i sidai baju and i duduk balik kat meja study and did some revision. but too bad, around 4.30pm i felt so sleepy! omg. i terlalu ikut kata hati til i tido until 6pm. cuaca pun enak je untuk i close my eyes and get a rest. hehe. this evening hujan sepanjang hari kan? so best je rase nye tido. after i woke i send text sms to Sidah asking for makan2 kat kedai mamak. but she ask for accompany her to fetch her friend at Gombak.

well sangat jauh dari rumah i and hujan lebat and banjir in several roads. luckily she drove a Honda CRV. can u imagine if she lend her sister's kelisa? hehehe mesti stuck tengah jalan kan? so lepas amik kawan dia, we went for kayu nasi kandar nearby our house. lepak2, makan, anyway sidah's fren is very friendly. people call him Kecik maybe memang sebab size dia yang kecik. hehehe. after sidah sent me home, i felt dizzy. tadi terkena hujan masa jalan dari car park to the mamak's. i ate 2 panadols then i continue wif my studies. right now? sleepy! still dizzy and i started sneezing. huwaaa i tanak demam. this tuesday ade test lagipun my mom pernah told me that if her daughter ni demam memang payah nak jaga. i agree sangat2 coz tonsil akan bengkak, demam sampai merah2 muka and suka dibelai belai. hahah rimas agaknye mak ku itu. bila lagi kan nak manja2 ngan mak? esok i takde kelas coz that lecturer batalkan kelas. luckily la sebab i ada masa nak rehat. hehe. but ade test plak esoknye. good luck to me then. *winks*

2nd long day - i need to study!!

hey blog. actually i went to sleep yesterday around 5am and i woke up 12pm today. quite not enough sleep actually. hehe i have planned for myself that i will study for my upcoming test today. but suddenly my mom asked me to bring her balik kampung. i terpk sekejap, bile mase lak nak study ni. but sokkay la my test will be on tuesday. i bole cover lagi after dis. by the way my kampung tak la jauh sangat. klang to kuala selangor. kampung kuantan to be exact. ala yang famous ngan kelip2 (firefly) tu. tu la kampung i. actually atuk ngan nenek dah takde. tinggal my uncle je kat sana and we went there to celebrate my little cousin's besday. actually her besday was on 6th june so decided to bring her a cake. then kat umah uncle i ni macam2 jenis makanan i tala masuk dalam perot. ikan bawal sweet sour, ayam pedas, kari udang and acar buah. perghh menjilat jari makan wo. my uncle's wife mmg pandai bab2 menjamu anak anak suadara nya. after the celebration. we went to Bukit Melawati. bukan melawati kat kl tu tau. it is located kat town kuala selangor. decide nak jalan2 sana. skali sampai sana kereta dah tak bole naik atas. for those yang tatau apa ade kat bukit melawati meh i bitau. kat sini la one of the place ahli2 ilmu falak yang tgk anak bulan utk tentukan raya ke puasa ke. and sini banyakkkk spesis kera. in fact dat kereta skang dah tak bole naik, diorang sediakan train. ala mcm kat zoO mase kecik2 dulu naik. eh kecik ke? i rase setahun lepas i ade naik kat zoo taiping and aritu naik train kat genting. ekeke. i enjoyed myself. bes sgt dpt jalan2 kat area kampung sendiri. agak jakun gak la kan?

my uncle, little cousin and my other auntie

ni la rupe train yang i naik. kami pilih gerabak last. did u notice dat that kid holding an umbrella? tengah2 naik train dgn feeling nye skali ujan plak. so tempias la. kene la cover2.

after dat kitorang balik kampung kuantan, we went for that firefly place. after renovation that place had became better and organized. those people yang tak tahu apa tu firefly, its a one kind of insect that came out at night and enhance light thru its body. ala mcm dalam iklan TNB dulu la. nak pegi tgk firefly (kelip2) ni u kene redah sungai selangor dgn cara traditional. i mean sampan. tak bole pakai bot sbb kalo bising nnt kelip2 larik. no camera pls because its flashes. bole buat kelip2 tu lari gak. one tip i nak bagi kat sini for those people who are interested, pegi masa awal bulan around 1hb - 15hb. better. siyesly and make sure its not raining, but kalo after raining lagi banyak kelip2 kuar dari hutan. hey i enjoyed watching this fireflies when i was kid. ye la i tgk for free coz my uncle own that place. hehe. rate for this journey is rm40 per sampan. and satu sampan tu 4 org. well if u rase u tanak lepaskan peluang tgk mende ni, sila la. especially kids. mesti suke tgk bende ni. mesti rase nak simpan dalam botol waktu malam. well i dah penah buat mase kecik2.

then lepas balik dari kampung, i went out to uptown shah alam. nak bawak cousin jalan2. i went there wit couples of frens here and jalan2 tgk barang2 and end up with nothing to buy. coz i rase mcm tak perlu. but i saw a jacket. its a GAP jacket. i rase bundle and its original tau. rm190. jacket nye labuh. omg cantik sangat. tp bile pk takkan nak beli lak? ehehe after pusing2 kat uptown about 2 hours, we went for supper kat seksyen 7. makan2, gelak2, minum2 then anta my cousin and here i am posting an entry for my day out activities. hehe. and i berazam nak study esok. hehehe i can do it! go go naz.

LOL

last night bf kepada kawan perempuan i yang i citerkan last few days ago ade la msg i kat ym. which i dah delete pun dia nye id dari my ym list. so dia msg and asked why i dingin ngan dia skang. heh. dia tanya why? and i reply la as 'like i care?' so dia ckp i kejam ngan dia. he didnt expect me to be so mean to him. then i cakap la i dun give a damn bout him anymore. i able to eager my feeling last night. how selfish he is to me. and ni la first time i berlaku kejam pada orang. i mean kejam cara ignore people. well i puas. biar dia tau betapa saket nye ati bila dibuat gini and padan muka dia jugak kan? to whom it may concern GO N DIE!

my long long day

hello hello hello!!!

mase i post this entry i just went back from jusco bukit raja. went for shrek 3 film. well kind of bored film i guess compared to shrek 1 and shrek 2. too straight to the point and not many jokes included in this film. but anyway i had my long day today. started last night which i cant sleep. i cant find the exact spot place to sleep even usually i use to sleep anywhere and at anytime. when finally i can close my eyes and sleep suddenly my mobile phone rang at 2 am. omg fully annoying kan? then i hard to sleep again. in addition i had nightmare last nite, i kena ugut akan dibunuh oleh orang jahat. im too scared dalam mimpi tu til i felt tension during sleep. in the morning i went to class as usual and traffic jamed! a bus accidently hit penghadang jalan at the 3rd lane in federal highway. malaysian people luv to watch and keep slow to see the accident. of course everybody dont want to miss to see live the incident but come on the bus had been pull out to emergency lane but still have people keep slow. then after arrived in uitm, race day for PALAPES (army) was held today. omg they blocking my way. i dont mind if they held the function here but guards should take care of them. do not allowed them to cross the road sesuka hati. sudahnya sampai nak terlanggar diorang pun ada. hadoi. silap2 tengah lari2 kene langgar lak dengan aku ni hah. pastu ive no mood in the class coz im sleepy. too sleepy for class. luckily that sir noticed how sleepy i am and asked me to do a task given in front of the class. after finished up the task, one of my classmate pengsan! dia asthma actually and demam currently. papah la dia keluar dari bilik yang sejuk ni. dah sibuk jaga dia. takut pape jadi kat dia pulak kan? punya la cuak tengok kawan sendiri pengsan sampai sesak2 nafas. lepas habis kelas, actually i tanak tengok wayang coz im too tired but i dah janji ngan kawan2 and i dah book ticket to so 7 of us went for shrek 3 but sadly its a boring film. then i went to mcd for ice cream thought it may be helpful to me. but stil cant recover my mood so decided to come home. after sending 4 other friends, i went home and my mom told me our Prime Minister will get married this Saturday to a woman name Jeanne Abdullah ( Jeanne Danker ) as stated by Pejabat Perdana Menteri.

New First Lady

im happy for our PM and i hope he will be happily ever after. amin.

p/s enough of my very long and long day. akak red, shopping sakan yerk. jgn lupe ole2 okek.

rasa hati ini

saya rasa sangat jauh with one of my best buddy. am i too conservative or im not as open minded as i thought. i dont blame her for where do she live now. distance always not the reason.we're still in the same town just her family moved out to other place within our town. i do feel like she already changed. i knew she make a move to make her life better.but do i feel better with it? am i jealous to her? 100% not. im not jealous. but sometimes i feel like she is far away from me. do i already been left behind? do i need some changes in my life? do i need to talk to her what i feel rite now? other friends assume she is enjoying her life rite now. give her some space. i knew she have a lot of friends. she is fun, she is gorgeous and she is pretty. everybody seems like wanna be her friend. i know if she is reading this entry she might think that 'apa saja la si ella ni pk kan' but i do miss her. she got her own life. she doesnt need me to advice her anymore. she doesnt need my shoulder to cry on anymore. currently she is with her exbf again. to that particular man, i hate you. from the deepest of my heart. i hate you because u such a jerk to me. when u cant have this little girl, u came to me and beg to me to help u getting back with her. after all this while, after she came back to you, you dont need me anymore aite? what kind of person are you? selfish and unthankful. hey you man, go and die. seriously.

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this saturday catat sejarah untuk myself sebab buat pertama kali nya i involved in enggagement ceremony of my 2nd cousin from my mom's side. my mom have no siblings so she is very close to her cousins. so one of my adik saudara and also known as Ngah or dulu mase kecik2 people call him as Abok. he is younger than me. he was enggaged wif a girl from Kuala Lipis, Pahang. we call her as Mai this saturday evening. so kami sebanyak 6 kereta pegi la meminang Mai yang kami selalu jumpa kat umah mak ngah sebab dia memang selalu datang. knew her back i found out that both of them work in the same place before Ngah accident patah kaki. Mai ni jugak la jaga Ngah masa patah kaki. so bila Ngah dah elok, his dad kata baik lah dicepatkan sebab orang kampung dah mula mengata. so kami suma pegi la menyertai rombongan meminang Cik Normairazita (payah nak sebut). very the hulu kampung dia. very! so kitorang arrived around 12pm and terus la memulakan tujuan tu. one thing yang i proud sangat, my dad been appointed as a speaker from Ngah's side. bayangkan i yang panic nak dengar apa my dad cakap nanti. but alhamdulillah abah buat i rasa sangat bangga sebab he managed to go with the flow.

left side Mai's father, right side my dad

lepas bincang2, Mai pun keluar dari bilik untuk disarungkan cincin oleh bakal mak mertua. eh wait a minute, bukan ke if bertunang cincin bukan disarungkan oleh mak mertua? paling menarik i nak share rupanya Mai ni ada 22 siblings out of 4 mom. productive? unplanned? no comment for that.

Mai & Mak Ngah

korang mesti nak tahu apa hantaran. 15 hantaran tu but i insaf la bila tengok dari segi hantaran. some of the things yang diguna as hantaran i tak pernah terfikir nak guna and non branded of course. but they managed to wrap nicely even some of the things i pakai for daily use. but it is better than never. dengan duit hantaran rm5ooo, i rasa macam mimpi. almost people more than rm10000 as duit hantaran but Ngah ngan Mai rm5000 je.

the blue one is from man's side and the green is from woman's side

after negotiation between 2 side, we are welcomed to have our lunch and and that rite time, i baru perasan khemah yang disediakan untuk kami tu macam khemah yang ada kain canvas dan ditegakkan guna kayu. menarik sangat. selalunye khemah camni dibuat untuk penanggah je. cool kan?

i bukan nak kata i ni insaf dah jadi baik, tapi i bangga la dengan Ngah. se sen pun mak ngah ngan pak ngah tayah kuar2 cari mainan untuk adam. tetiba skang i terpk bila lak i nak kawen? overall i insaf sebab marriage isnt for meeting wife but how the other parties accept u unconditionally. it also isnt about money, it is one way of 2 differ party merged together. i insaf juga sebab i tak pernah tengok umah sehulu gini. and the lauk pauk, even barang2 hantaran tak glamour, he stil manage to get 15 hantaran even non branded things but yet stil meriah dengan kedatangan kami yang disambut dengan mesra. after 2 hours spend kat sana, kami pun balik and singgah di air terjun Hutan Lipur Lentang. kids went for swimming but person like me? watch and see only. heheh. overall i enjoyed my saturday life, im very proud of my Ngah and my DAD especially for his excellent job.

Finally...

from the left: my mom, my dad, mak ngah, mai, ngah and this lil cute girl ana.